Wednesday, March 24, 2010

sad news

We could desperately use your prayers. our baby's birthmom changed her mind. The social worker just left with him. She did this in the 72 hr time frame and it is legal. We are grieving, but the hard part is knowing I would have done the same thing. My kids are grieving really hard here. That is a really big part of MY frustration and anger. It is such a shocker, she had not given us nor the social worker any signs of changing her mind. She was stoic and fully determined. Outwardly anyway. But we are entrusting Jackson into God's care. We do know we gave him all the possible love and affection and prayers posible for the little guy in his first few days. We know he is in HIS hands. And so are our hearts. But please pray. I have so much to box up and take apart. I have crying kids. I am a sobbing mess. Even the hubster is really broken. But I also know God works ALL things together for our good. He can make good of any thing at all. Thanks for all your prayers that I know you will send up on our behalf.

7 comments:

Alicia said...

Oh, my sweet friend, my heart aches for you. Praying for ALL involved.

Ruth Branson said...

Oh Hezra! I gasped when I read the first line of your post. I am so very sad for you. I can't imagine the roller coaster of emotions: not even knowing of the possibility of Jackson a few weeks ago; all the way to bringing him home; and then this. I'm so very sorry, for all of you. May you find strength in our big God, who still has your best at heart, and who will also carry Jackson in his hands. I'll pray for you, as well as for Jackson and his birth mom.

Hang in there.

Ruth

Lori said...

OH NO!! Please know that I will begin praying right now. I am so sorry this has happened. It is heartbreaking to say the very least.

Jean said...

Oh Man... I am so sorry. I bet your heart is broken. I am sorry for your children and hubby, too.

I will pray for healing for all of you and pray that God will take good care of Jackson.

Bless you dear friend.

The Byrd's Nest said...

Oh Hezra...my heart is broken along with yours my friend. I am at a loss for words except that I am thankful you are clinging to the Lord and trusting in His plan. I will be praying for everyone involved...I can't imagine everyone's emotions...the birthmother has to be going through so many different emotions especially after childbirth. And oh my heavens...your precious children...know that I am on my knees...I am so so sorry my friend.

Daughter to THE King said...

My heart is breaking for you. Prayers are being said and I wish I could just hug you...I'm so sorry.

Christy O said...

Praying for you all. I can so relate - we were asked to adopt a baby to be born with Down Syndrome, we were told by birthmom that we should expect him early, and just a few days before his expected birth, she called to say that he had passed in utero. It was so devastating. I can so relate to how you are feeling. I cannot bear to take the crib down or put away his little clothes. I don't know where God is going with this. I am so very sorry!!!!