oh. my. word

Ok, I haven't been on here in a while. Maybe there aren't even any readers anymore. But I need to vent out into cyberspace and hopefully be heard by SOMEONE who will then pray for us. I have spent all day mulling this over. How to word it? How to be as polite as possible. etc. Here is the situation: we are still working on a foster- care adoption. We were hoping to get a small sibling group from foster care. After the HUGE disappointment of last spring, we had hoped we would have better luck. As it turns out we have had more bad adoption experiences. We had one staffing in MO that did not pan out. The kids and I were pretty sad about that one. Then there have been several different families we have been "considered" for since then, but turned down as well. Then yesterday, I received a package in the mail saying "congratulations, you have been accepted as the adoptive parents for ____" It was for a sibling group I had fallen in love with. I had REALLY wanted them. And it was between our family and one other with our agency. But they had chosen the other family. So I called our case worker and she said, " oh, that has to be a mistake." I called 2 workers twice each(leaving messages) then waited to hear back. I finally got through at the end of the day and this one said,"I can't tell you anything, I am waiting to hear from the supervisor." This morning that one called me and said " I am calling to tell you, it WAS a mistake. Another family was chosen for those kids. I guess it got mixed up at the other office." GAH!!!! How can they make such a horrific mistake?? How can they not even say sorry???? They just blamed each other!!! I now have a pkg that I have to PAY (!?) to mail back to them that I was not supposed to receive??? And it is a cruel blow that it was kids I realllllllly wanted. I have one little girl not so happy about this development either. And a teen who says I should just claim them by filling out the paperwork anyhow. We could call it an intervention from God. oops.
So, now that I have blown up about it, and vented about it, I need prayer for peace and my faith to be restored. I am feeling such frustration and depression over this long drawn out experience. I am seriously tired of the stupid enemy interfering with our dreams. I will sleep tonight dreaming of the kids GOD has for us, and know they will be even better for us than the sweet peanuts I was coveting from another family. I will trust that God will work all things together for the good of those that love Him and are called according to His purpose. Maybe this means I will have extreme favor in that state in the near future. And as hard as it may be, I will refrain from writing a biting letter of injustice(even though I totally rock at those) So, any who are still following the drama of our lives-- please keep us in your prayers??